I’m afraid. I’m afraid of hoping too much. I’m afraid of trusting someone’s words to be true. I want so badly to believe what my candidate says, could it be possible that things could be different, more responsible, better for more people?
I don’t want to be played for a fool here. I desperately want to think that this country can be what it should be. I don’t say “could be like it once was” because I think that the way it used to be might have been wishful remembering. That was a time before we all weren’t jaded by the easily obtainable truth. You only believed what you heard and what you heard was only from one or maybe two sources, not the hundreds of thousands we have nowadays. Oh, and if you think that the single sources back then were pure and non-biased, well you’re stupid. Nearly everyone has their own agenda and wants to further their own beliefs and causes. It’s human to do so. So whether it was as pure and good then as we “remember” it to be remains to be seen, likely it never will.
But I have in my bleeding heart liberal mind a vision of what I want this country to be. I’m not so stupid as to believe that it can be this way, but it would be nice if it were a little bit more. I want us to be responsible, to take care of those who need taking care of, to hold our national hands outstretched with whatever others might need. To take care of those who need to be taken care of and to be responsible and fair in our own dealings.
I am nearing saturation point and need for this election to be over. I almost feel as if it just needs to be done with so that we can begin the process of learning we were duped again. Please let me be wrong this time, please let my pessimism (which is tempered by experience) be wrong and we really do begin a change, a renaissance of national renewal, an uplifting of America in the eyes of the world.
And an uplifting of her own citizens who have been torn down in the last eight years.